Christmas at 4 AM

    My Christmas started at 4 AM.  Loralei came to me with the lovey doll that was in her sister's stocking.  We put that back and laid down.

    Little L decided this was a great time to poop so I changed the first of 3 poopy diapers from 4-5:30.  

    At this point big L spotted the leftover cookie and carrot for Santa and his reindeer.  We went up to her bed and she proceeded to devour the cookie.  She fed her new Elmo doll the carrot oh and I got a bite too.  

   We were all back to sleep in big L's bed by 5:40 and officially started Christmas at 7:30 or 9 which is when dad was woken up. 

Motherhood is a stressful blessing

    All day I have been feeling down and mad at the world.  I did not do anything productive and did not even get dressed for the day until 4pm.  I've let out a lot of tears and at one point I actually threw stuffed animals around the room.  Don't worry no one else was in the room with me.  

    Now at 2:30am I'm letting those feelings all melt away as I'm realizing how blessed I am.  I put little L in her cradle asleep but she woke up.  At first I was annoyed, just like I had been at everything else today.  Then I picked her up and let her lay with me, her head on the crook of my arm, and right back to sleep she went.  

How lucky I am to have children who love and trust me so much that simply being close to me relaxes them.  How lucky am I to have children that want to be close to me?!  I wanted a break so bad all day and now I'm choosing to revile in this pure love and the blessing that is motherhood.  

   Even if I do want to escape sometimes or wish I could have just a few minutes to myself, motherhood truly is a blessing.  This stage of them needing me like this won't last for long in the grand scheme of things.   Still next weekend I'm feeding little L and running out the door.  Mama needs a hair cut and some sanity.  

My little stinker

    So it's 2:50, little L wakes and wants to nurse.  No problem I'll give her the boob and we will both go back to sleep.  Oh no I smell poop, ok I'll change her then we will go back to sleep.  Well my nose lied to me, no poop.   change the wet diaper, get her all swaddled back up, start to put her back to sleep, and then she poops.  Really child, really, you just had to wait for the clean diaper hu? Oh Well it's 3:20 now and she is back to sleep, just another day in paradise. :/  

4 AM wake up call

    Motherhood; coming to terms that "sleeping in" is sleeping until 7am.  It's also coming to terms with the fact that waking up for the day at 4am will happen. I'm not happy about it but that was when I was woken up by my little two year old angel :/.  I don't have the patience or fight in me to get her to go back to sleep at 4am and watching a movie did not work so this will be a super fun day( sarcasm, just incase you could not tell).  
    

Resting. . . well kind of

    Ever since little L and I came home big L has come and woke me up in bed in the morning.  The last few days she has laid down with me for a while.  Today she gave me her stuffed Elmo to lay with.  Aww that was so sweet of her to share and to think of me but really all I want is just to sleep for a few more uninterrupted hours.
   Oh well at least I got to lay in bed with two little girls, a passed out husband, and a little stuffed Elmo for a little while.  I guess resting with a full bed and a restless toddler is better than no rest at all so I'll try to be happy with what I can get.