Now at 2:30am I'm letting those feelings all melt away as I'm realizing how blessed I am. I put little L in her cradle asleep but she woke up. At first I was annoyed, just like I had been at everything else today. Then I picked her up and let her lay with me, her head on the crook of my arm, and right back to sleep she went.
How lucky I am to have children who love and trust me so much that simply being close to me relaxes them. How lucky am I to have children that want to be close to me?! I wanted a break so bad all day and now I'm choosing to revile in this pure love and the blessing that is motherhood.
Even if I do want to escape sometimes or wish I could have just a few minutes to myself, motherhood truly is a blessing. This stage of them needing me like this won't last for long in the grand scheme of things. Still next weekend I'm feeding little L and running out the door. Mama needs a hair cut and some sanity.